my big bro

diz is my big bro...

~when i was born he sing 'isabella' song 4 me becoz when i was baby, everybody call me isabella...
~well, we live in the countryside since my mom want 2 take care my late grandma.
~so i live there with my mom,grandma, and my other 2 brother but since my third bro is bz with his school, so i always play with my big bro(in the pict)
~he always bullying me...-.- but he the only fren i have that time becoz... our house rally far from other people... so i dont really have a fren...
~even we always fighting... but he always protect me n never let me be alone.
~our house always blackout since it the countryside place, when my mom n my grandma praying, he always have beside me coz i'm very afraid of the dark
~i still remember that when i'm playing with him and his fren, i was once crying becoz somebody caught him... well the game we're playing is called 'police n thieve'... huhuhu... i thought his fren wanna hurt him so i cried so loud...
~well, when my mom scold me n i crying, he will buy me an ice cream... :-)
~the memory that i will never forget is... he always carrying me with his bicycle... i love that feeling when i was on his bicycle.:-). i really miss those memory
~well... he always call me skunk, kambing(goat) becoz i dont like taking the morning bath when i was young... hihihihi... even i'm a big girl now, she still keep calling me that.
~when we want 2 cross a street especially big street, he always hold my hand... i feel safe that way.
~well, when he goes 2 boarding school, i feel so sad n always ask my mom when he will come back. i feel alone n unsecured... well i'm not that independent on those day n i'm 8 years old.becoz of that i become so boyish juz 2 protect myself.
~oh yeah!!! he love to steal my food from my plate!:-(...but then he will return back to me but sometime he will really eat it.T.T
~then he told me that he has a girlfren... i become so jealous thinking that he will never love me again... he my big bro n i dont want to share him with other girl!
~but the i realize that someday he will get married n so do i but our bond will never gonna change. he always love me as his cute youngest sister :-)...
~so... as long as he still love me, it OK if he wanna have GF or get married.

RAYA HAJI 2009
~he come back from Klang for public holiday. he arrive so late, i think around 1-2 a.m.
~but when he arrive, he dont wake me from the sleep 2 open the door. he sleep in the car until my dad go to subuh pray at surau.
~usually when i wake up so late, he alway disrupting my sleep. but i get the peaceful sleep on that day.
~he dont bullying me as usual... but he still buy a box of ice cream as usual since ice cream is his favourite food... or dessert

4th DECEMBER
~my other big bro push me to call him.. but since i'm dont have credit so i dont call him plus he will come back tomorrow on 5th December. so i can spend some time with him...
~that was what i'm thinking... AND i REGRET bout it

BUT ON 5th DECEMBER... the day that i wont forget...
~he come back... as usual... late in the midnight...
~but diz time... he will never call me skunk again... or bullying me...
~he come back but he leave me forever...
~AND until NOW i'm live in the regret... i wish i call him that nite... i wish to hear his voice again...
~i would treat anything in diz world juz to hear he call me SKUNK again...
~juz to accept the fate that i will never seen his smile again, to hear his stupid joke or to be bullied by his again... it so hard to accept this reality...

=my fren said that the time will never heal diz broken heart... but i still have to stay alive no matter what.
=he also said that i should not forget anything bout my big bro... i should draw back each memory that i have with him with the smile...
~so that why i write bout my memory with him in diz blog... so that everybody know i have such a lovely and jerk brother...^_^